I wish I knew how to be a better friend

Not just to him, but to everyone I know

I wish I was a better friend to my sister & brother

To my father and mother

To my grandparents

To my cousins, aunts and uncles

But where was I when we lost him among the living?

Where were we when we took our last picture together?

What was the last beer we drank?

What was the last laugh we had?

Where was I when these memories were being made?

Was I somewhere in my own head; thinking too hard?

Wishing I was different?

Wishing I was better?

All along not knowing how special the time will be

When there are no more times like these